love..

how good will it be just that two person that are in love with each other just be able to be together without any other problem?
wrote on 31-12-2012

not compatible?

here comes again this problem, maybe is I just din realise or dun wish to acknowledge that before this ba, so at the end my mum is not really like her.... and ya I am once again crying already... she is really like not agree me to go on with her anymore... wanted to fetch her and her sister up to Muar and told her my plan, then she pause for a while and straight away say boy I tell you she is really not suitable for you, her character is really too different from you already. I was stunned for a moment I admit, after that there was a sharp pain going through my heart... and I asked her then what you want me to do now?! she said just be normal friend with her.. After that I have nothing to say anymore and there is a long silent.... was eating at that instant and all the food become tasteless, tears rushing out my eye and I am holding them back... well it is really discouraging when you know that your family aren't support and help bless your relationship... now I can truly understand how my sis suffer that time when she and my brother in law last time, it is way more hurting than I can imagine... I really dun know why she is saying this to me maybe she really hope that I am not with her anymore.... well this really affected me, there are really quite a lot of things that we are different about :

-she always longing to reach out to the world and explore but not me as I scared I got family burden
-she character are far more outgoing and extrovert which totally opposite with me which is introvert and boring

-she is more open minded and some stuff that she thinks is absolutely find maybe isn't for me

so far this is the main difference in terms of characters..

and there are also something that is bothering me in this relationship, she is like getting more and more badass in this relationship, overpower me all the time and at times make me wonder why I am become such a whimp, another thing that is always been there is that she always treat other guys good especially her most recent ex which always make me jealous.. well there is a lot more that I want to spilt out in this public but unknown space but I am really tired now and wish to sleep already... now I really dunno what to do, I am already fall so deep with her already and almost impossible to break with her liao but with all these problem, I really dunno already... well nights world.. and ya my eye is sore...

Sooon I will be visiting and posting here often liao...

Recently things have not gone well for me, either relationship with my girl or with my family, so at times i also dunno where to speak or to release my thought. So i think blogging is quite a nice channel to do the job. At times is quite funny how you wanna write in the blog as you know that nobody will know, but at the same times another part of you contradict and wanted all these post to be bring to somebody attention. I think this is how troublesome human's mind can be at times ba ... anyway is late already and i think i should get some sleep ady... nitez.