Happy!! but it is just a illusion......

today is friday... as normal i have kawad till 1 sumthing..... knewing tat she and pikyang got thing and stayback in the library for sum chinese thing, before i go down to hutan, i called pik yang and found out whether them is still in the library or not...... after i called , i knew tat the thing was just over.. then i walk quickly down to hutan hoping tat she is waiting for bus at the bustop there too..... when i almost reach there... i was so happy to c her standing at the bus stop there and was ALONE!!!! yeappy!!!! so i walk towards the bus stop.. say halo with her.... but she took the initiative to talk with me!!! then we talked for quite a few minits.... i was so enjoy when i was talking with her.... i think this is the first time having conversation with her like this!! the best thing is tat can look to her so nearly without being afraid of letting she knows.. cause we are talking lol!! she was really pretty.!!!!! really very enjoyed and exicited talking to her lorh...... although it was really enjoyable, but in my deep heart, i knew tat she was just talking to me like how she will to another boy, as a friend. so my feeling is quite complicated.... after around 3 minits, other st john member came down then we stopped our conversation. and soon after tat, the bus came..... i waited her to go into the bus before i go into the bus..... after sitting down, painess and sadness came straight into my heart....although i hope tat the conversation will last forever, but all of tat is just of my ILLUSION!!!! it will never come true............. :'(
love hurts~~~~~~~~~